I took FillerBeans in for an ultrasound this afternoon and as soon as Dr. Esmond put his hands on her abdomen to palpate he said "well she's definitely pregnant". I did a little 2-footed-hippy-hop Happy Dance in my head to celebrate. I felt like I could see all the little signs at home in our every day life but having confirmation was such a big weight off my shoulders. & my dog's not actually crazy.
Nor is she actually a raving bitch.
& she doesn't have some bladder disorder that makes her pee one MILLION times a day.
Nor is she getting "clingy", just extra cuddly, which is normal.
So all my radar beacons going *dingdingding* really did mean what I thought they meant. & I really do know my dog as well as I thought I did. & those "velvety nipples"? Really were velvety ;-)
TWO PUPPIES right up there at the top -- see 'em??
Here's one little Beanie Baby...
...and then the machine ran out of paper. WAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! :'(
But that's okay because I got to see their itty bitty little hearts beating. *ah* So precious! I realize that this is what most normal folks feel when they see their child's heartbeat for the first time, really, I do understand, but ... I don't want a kid, I want BeanieBabies, and I'm SO excited about this!! And seeing their little heartbeats was nothing short of amazing. Made me all teary-eyed! I'm sure the vet techs in there with me were like "dude, it's just puppies, we see this shit every day..."
But Fillie is so much more to me than "just a dog", so her puppies are of course so much more to me than "just a litter". She will have amazing offspring, and she will continue to amaze me with her presence every single day. If it were possible to have 2 heart dogs at once, I'd say that's what I have. It's as if she and Josie have combined themselves to form the perfect compliment to me. I can't imagine life without either of them, and both for different reasons. Josie because she helps me out, Fillie because she breaks things that I have to fix. Josie because she's my rock, she watches over me, and is always there when I need her, Fillie because she needs me to cuddle with her and be still with her and play with her. Josie because she KNOWS me and I know her, Fillie because we're always figuring each other out and appreciating each other more with everything we learn. Josie because she knows when to be loud and when to be quite, and Fillie because being "loud&proud" is all she knows how to be. They are both amazing animals and my life wouldn't be half as fulfilling as it is, without them. Josie brought me joy through hard times and held my hand through Jeff's deployment and all the tears that brought. Fillie is the reason I met Jeff, and her antics took my tears away and turned them into laughter. I adore these smoothies, and it means so much to me that they mean so much to each other. They are the best of friends, and even though puppies scare the begeesus out of Josie, I know she'll be a great AuntieJo ;-)
Ah...bestill my heart.